我的心情很不好! ):

Didn't update my blog for so so long, was kinda busy working & my health is damn weak this month, keep falling sick & I've already spend a bomb on seeing doctor.

Have been feeling giddy since Tuesday morning, till now it's not getting any better. ):
Mood today was okay, was feeling damn unwell during work time, & so I didn't went out for lunch, but I ask my colleague to packed back for me.
Have a short nap from 12pm to 1pm, tot I'll feel better after a nap, but who knows, my colleague told me that my face is very pale & my lips is very white, seriously, Idk what's wrong with me.
In the evening time, my manager says she got things to talk to me & so I follow her into the meeting room.
She told me that, she've to transferred me out of Call Centre, & I'll be going over to the Recept there, when she break the news to me, I'm very calm, I just agreed & smile to her.
Idk why am I so calm & why I actually agreed to it.
Should be Joanne going over, but then she somehow make a fuss on it, saying if she's being transferred to Recept, she wanna quit.
But then, since the manager says that she give her one more chance, then I think there's nothing I can say or do anymore.
Although I DO feel that it's UNFAIR to me, but then what to do?
This is life, this is fate, got to accept it.
Afterall, at least I still have the job, I don't wanna make things till damn complicated & ugly till the extend that I lose the job, so no matter what's the outcome, I'll accept it loh, rather than making a fuss out of nothing.
Actually, I'm quite DISAPPOINTED when I hear the news, but then hais..
Been working in Call Centre for about 2months plus, & now have to be transferred out, feel kinda sad, moody, & somehow feel like crying, but then I told myself, going to a new working environment, it may be better, because got new things to learn ba, by on the other hand, I feel so lonely & 无助.
I tot there's someone whom I can really talked to, but sad to say, NO!

After work, was suppose to meet up with ❤ Baby, but then when I called him at 5.52pm, he's still fucking at home, & that really pissed me off, as he's always not in time in meeting me!
So, I told him to meet me at BuonaVista instead, as he need to get his hair cut.
So, when I boarded the train back home, I called him, & he told me he's at Clarkquay station, so I told him I wait for him at OutramPark & train back together, he say okay.
So I alight at OutramPark, & I waited for him for almost 10minutes, & he still didn't appeared, so I called him, he actually ask me to train back to BuonaVista & wait for him at the salon, & now I feel that something is amissed, so I know he lie to me, he's actually not at Clarkquay, & I was too pissed off & I hanged the call with him & texted him to fuck him!

Quarrelled outside the salon, & I'm really damn hot, really is damn hot with him!
He went into the salon to get his hair cut, after that, walked back home, I get changed & we cabbed down to Bishan to find Mummy & Uncle, as they're having their prawning session there.
In the cab, then I forgived him & we joined them for prawning session 3hours.
Prawn till 11pm, Mummy & Uncle went off, & I tot ❤ Baby is going to extend so I asked Mummy & Uncle to go off first, but fuck, he's not going to extend, but then why he don't wanna tell me earlier, so that I can ask Mummy & Uncle to wait for me & go back together.
In the end, quarrel again, & I'm damn pissed off, & I boarded a cab & leave myself!

现在的我只想好好的大哭一场, 我憋到自己好难受, 好辛苦!
所有的事我都往自己的肚子里吞! 唉!
好痛苦啊!