❤ 如果爱不会伤害人, 那有多好!

Quarrel again & again, it doesn't seems to have an ending in quarrelling.
It really make me damn sian, damn sick, damn tired with it.

He always tend to say he'll play lesser when we're quarrelling, after awhile he'll be back like the past, games, sleeping, watch television is as if he's life.
Friends are also more important than me to him, he seems to have more things to talk to his friends than me, his texts to me is always so short, so cold, his calls to me, is always I'm the one who do the most talking, so who am I to him seriously?
You told me that, you've to chiong level on weekdays because you've to accompany me on weekend.
You need 5days to chiong your level, which means you've to neglect me for 5 fucking days, you say you'll accompany me on weekends, but in the end also only 1day, because you've to work on every Sunday, so you're going to neglect me for 6 fucking days & only accompany me for 1 fucking day, IS THIS FAIR TO ME?
I feel that you no longer love me like you used to, you no longer will show me care & concern.
You seems to leave me further & further away..

He always say my attitude pissed him off, yes I admit that my attitude really sucks alot, but then what about yours?
Did you really go think about your attitude towards me?
Sometime you treat me so good, like I'm a princess, but sometimes you treat me as if I owe you a few millions!

My heart is so pain, I broke down already.
Seriously, Idk what more I can do!

You say in a relationship, it need two hands to claps, it need two persons to work out, you say you've tried all your best already.
So, you felt that I didn't put in any effort in this relationship?
All I done in the past is fake?
You say you no money, I give you, you say you no cigarettes, I give you, you say you want to dye hair, I pay for you, you say I go out with my sisters, I've to buy things for you, when did I say NO to you?
Hais, I really don't know what more I can really do to pleased you, to make you happy.
You want me to change my attitude, this is me, why should I change?
If you really love me, you'll not ask me to change, is that means that you asked me to change means you don't love me?
You seems to doubt me, my love, my trust?

I do love you like I used to, but then how am I going to continued to love you when you seems to have doubts in me?
I love you more than anything, but then..

I'm so sad, I cried till like nobody business, I totally have no mood for anything.
I'm so loss & confused!

It'll be our anniversary in 3days time, can we make it?
Hais.